In 25 hours, I am turning 25 years…

and if I could ponder about the fact that “I am turning 25”, all I can feel is ‘Damn! Is it Real?’

Everyone’s life has stages, mine has 3 predominant stages — Innocence, Chaos & Confidence

I would classify until 17 as the stage of innocence — it has been the journey of knowing literally Nothing (may be at that time I felt like I knew a lot, but if I think now, I was nothing other than a naïve, reserved, underconfident person) I was easily influenced, had neither strict values nor ambitions, I was just like a blank sheet of paper. A Paper that just had some butterflies. (Yes, that’s the one thing I was certain about 😉)

18 to 20 was chaos. Two years — just two years. But those two years was one hell of a ride! From death staring experiences, High on Laughter, Tears of Humiliation, Guilt, Regret, Fun, Exhilaration — you name it, it was there. But yeah, that’s the game right? What felt as ‘Well Informed’ then turns out to be chaos now. But this is the stage where my ideologies began shaping up — the most concrete ideologies I hold now are evolved from the seeds that sprung up then. I was a pure Atheist then. To a point where I questioned the existence of christ in a church, questioned the presence of spirit in a temple and did so many things and said so many words that I (if had a chance) would definitely take back. I never had any respect for values that are varied from mine. I do deeply regret that thought process….

And then came the 20th Birthday — The First Birthday in my life where I cried, where I was all alone and the one where I felt totally insignificant. No friends around, Family within their own chaos and me — left totally stranded. Yes, the birthday where I felt 20, and Alone. Something about me changed in that Birthday. I wore a black dress, (Mum used to say No Black for Birthdays — but that day I wore a full black dress), wrote an exam and came back, no friend talks, no special treats, nothing. Wasn’t just a normal day — it was a day of sadness.

But today, I don’t just want to tell you about that, infact the main parts I wanted to tell you are the ones that came after that.

The parts between 20 t0 25. The parts that changed it all — the part that made me who I am.

Yes, I do not have a Fancy Car. I do not have a Fancy House, I haven’t gone on a Solo Trip, I haven’t taken a party celebration, infact I haven’t gone out anywhere on my own. I lost most of the friends because I don’t go out to socialise. I have just been there — in my house, and going out with Parents and not doing anything fancy with the money. That being said, here is what I did:

- Made over 2000 friends on the Internet! Across the World

- Made over 4000 Business Connections, people I know on a First Name Basis, everyone building a Business and making crores in revenue

- Made over 1Cr in Profits just tapping laptop keys and talking to People

- From being someone who stammered in presentations to Flaunting my Negotiation skills, have become a cheerful Sales Person

- Built and Shut down 4 companies, 10+ IG Brand Pages

- Built, Run & closed a Company with a 27 member team

- Got Featured in 5+ Publications, incl cover story

- Attended and got mentored by over 20+ prominent National & International Coaches

- Have developed such a Loving relationship with my Family — a relationship I never thought would be this closer

- Got to know myself more and more than I every believed possible

- Realised the World is a better place and I can make it a better place just by being Me

- Developed a Powerful Vision to actually go ahead and Heal the World

- Learnt Cooking in the most authentic way possible, and actually started loving the process

- In the process of Learning Belly Dance & working on making myself the best version of Me

- Despite dropping out of MBA, Learnt and developed much more skills in varied subjects like Psychology, Neurobiology, Energetics and Nutrition

- Have worked with over 170+ clients across the world from Agriculture until Aerospace

- Had the opportunity to attend and learn from top experts in every field

- Learnt and experimented a lot on Human Performance and Amplifying returns

And still learning and exploring….

In this 25 years, I would say my life is a compilation of ‘Best Case Scenarios’ of every possible occurance. May be some of them, I felt it wasn’t a actual best case scenario, like — there were days when I missed socialising with friends or actually going out on my own. But later, like really later — I realised, the kind of conviction and the circumstance that I was in — didn’t just force me to look deeper into me, but also gave a perspective of what real freedom means.

You know what it means?

Freedom is of two types:

- The External Freedom — the one where you live in a democratic country without being a slave

- The Internal Freedom — the one where your soul feels aligned and not held behind by an invisible controlling belief of your own thoughts and mind.

I realised there is a second one only when I stopped chasing the first one. For me, the First one didn’t make any sense, because the time I actually asked myself, ‘What I wanted to do?’- the answer was , nothing really meant so much.

All I wanted to do, maximum was meet with my friends who are outside the city or meet up with my partner. But if I could say — those can wait, I didn’t really have a compelling reason to go on. Ofcourse it might be different for you, but when I put myself in that position — I asked myself: ‘No, it can’t be all. This is not all freedom feels like.’ And that’s when I asked myself — how many of us (incl me) are holding ourselves back, from not living our lives to our FULLEST POTENTIAL just because somewhere we feel ‘an emotion’ that’s either trying to protect us or telling us its dangerous to go out there?

How many of us are trying to jump where we are constantly stuck with a glass ceiling?

How do we even harness the power of our being?

How do we know, what our life is like? Why we feel what we feel?

How and When do we realise — Life isn’t about Surface level revelations, love isn’t just about what we hear as words — its much more denser?

When do we even realise… we are LIVING and Life isn’t external?

When do we………

The questions? They keep going on…

But 25 has given me all of these and much more.

As a B2B Sales Consultant, a Podcaster, Writer, Former CEO, Founder, Entrepreneur & most importantly — as a Thinker, as I write this today all I am filled with is Gratitude & Love.

Gratitude for everything life has offered

Love for every person I met

Respect for every human I ever crossed path with

Loyalty for my family — Bound & Unbound by Blood.

I am proud to say, I have 1000s of acquaintances and 10s of friends, but only a few who are Family and those Family Mean a Lot.

This Birthday I aspire to celebrate without a cake. But with a great start to committing to becoming the better version of myself. A Better version built by too many people I met and too many moments I shared!

To all my Mentors, Friends, People I share my life with

Thanks for being there 😊