The Pursuit of Freedom
The Pursuit of Freedom
The first question that comes to my mind is, from whom?
Okay, that is my life purpose, and I surely cannot solve it in one blog.
Initially, it's from school/college, then from the routine of 9 to 5, then from restrictions that parents impose, then from the social expectations, and the list goes on and on.
But, while all of these were ongoing, our lives were soo hooked up. This is just like the paradox of the inevitable.
‘Keep you distracted with the external inhibitions that you forget what really is in important.’
The one that politicians and news media follow before you can focus on the most important one — the next BIG(often small) thing comes up, and we get carried away by that.
Is the master of life doing the same as well?
While I surely believe every one of us has a unique journey to continue and cherish in, and a clear goal to strive for, a Mission to complete, we do have our own purpose to live by.
it's the things that make your life meaningful, not just you. The most purposeful person on the planet, I would say, is my Mom. She gave 3 different people a whole new life! A whole system of operation.
Mom, idk what I would do without you.
But contrary to this wonderful human, I believe my purpose is beyond 3 to 5 humans or the demographical borders of the city.
I want the message, the philosophy, and the methodology to be far and wide.
And on that note, I am about to ask you something that has been bugging me.
It was about roughly a year ago — I went through some life-changing days.
And at the end of it, I realised: My Pursuit in this lifetime is to find out, ‘What real freedom is’.
And ever since that, I defined freedom in many ways. Like, real MANY ways.
Some were highly profound and complicated, some hilarious and turned out a mockery. But all throughout — I wanted to find out.
Yesterday was a day of insights and my time to face the mirror. You know, it's easy to blame people, say, this is the scenario, say this is unchangeable, and it is true that, most of the time, we put away some problems saying it's unchangeable. Or ‘I have no control over it’.
And that is precisely what I did. All throughout, I was looking at problems from an exterior sense. I was looking for sources to find freedom.
Always looking at the exterior! Maybe that is how we are all trained. If you have a problem — look where it is. And always look on the outside.
And for this, Yesterday was the first time I accepted and said it aloud to myself: “The problem isn’t external. It's within me. Maybe it started externally, but at this very moment — it's deep inside me.”
It was around 12 Am when I slept, and I slept with this thought. I had a deep sleep, An uninterrupted sleep until 7 Am.
And when I woke up, I was struck with this:
Freedom. We all strive for Freedom from externals. But what about Freedom from oneself?
Do you have Freedom from you?
My Mind Froze.
Wait. What?
OMG.
Oh No.
Wait. Wait
The things that are often holding us back are ourselves. Our negative emotions, Karmic Balance, the Grudge we hold against many others and ourselves, the obsessions and emotions, and so many other things.
And sometimes, we stop.
We aren’t able to move further cuz the load is too much.
When I learnt about Chakra Healing and emotional intelligence, sensual science and logical scientific theories, here’s what I understood.
Emotional Baggage creates a weight that pulls the muscles down. It does that by making your body stiff, contracting the blood flow and making you feel like a bottomless pit. While this is happening, the hormones do the side job of making your heart beat faster, making you feel racing emotions — sometimes nervous, sometimes excited and so on.
This being the biological response, the factor is neither good nor bad. If you analyse deeper, you will know that the outcomes are the same in times of extreme happiness and sadness.
We cry, jump with joy, or crumble with sadness; it's either excited screams or rage of anger. If you analyse closely — the displayed intensity is the same. It's just that the emotions with it differ.
And while this happens biologically, every inch of sadness/trauma/limiting belief that holds you down — creates a block in the chakra.
And this block prevents you from working at your fullest potential. This Block happens not just on the emotional side but also physically.
For example, in my case — I cannot function knowing I have restrictions. What I expect from life is — the Flow. If I wanna do something, I should be able to do it. Go Deeper into the sea, run on the Highway, Jump from a cliff knowing it's dangerous, etc.
But, when the flow is restricted, I feel restricted everywhere.
Technically this flow is in the Mind.
I feel a restriction.
But how I experience it is entirely different. I don’t just feel it emotionally; I feel it physically.
My breadth becomes short; words start to stutter, the pace of my walk stumbles etc.
When the Flow of the mind is interrupted, everything else is interrupted too. The flow of breadth, the flow of voice, the flow of feet etc.
So you ge it?
Flow isn’t just in the mind; It's everywhere.
So here, the restriction, I feel, isn’t just on the outside. But also on the inside.
Now you may say, “But you feel it because it was there, so isn’t it an external problem?”
Okay. Here’s where the whole thing takes a turn.
Many times, it's not the ‘NO’ that holds us back. But the Fear of hearing a NO.
We refuse to ask out in a relationship cuz we fear getting a No.
We refuse to quote higher prices because of the fear of getting rejected.
We refuse to put in a deposit for the house, cuz again — it's the Fear.
Isn’t it insane? That through most of our life, the restrictions are often self-imposed and self-conditioned?
It's okay, don’t beat yourself. You might have gotten this idea from a lot of places.
It might be the number of Nos you heard throughout your childhood, how your past peers treated you and so on.
But the point is, you have control over every other thing if yu see it in the right way.
Because now, it's simple. The whole, ‘I can’t control what’s outside of me is Gone.’
We know everything starts with us, and we can control it.
TODAY started with a revelation. And I am going to work deeper on it.
I have kinda reduced my presence on social media. I felt a lot of things are going on and felt a little overwhelming, but nevertheless — life has its own reason for everything that happens.
Let’s see where this journey takes us.
Let me know what you think. Will Love to learn your perspectives further “)
